As ridiculous, frantic, emo and sometimes untrue as my past posts may be, I feel I need to keep them as a reminder of the places I have been and the places I never wish to be again.
I'm smoking your old cigarette butts like a junkie, pondering old habits never dying. Tonight I promise myself I will let go. Always tomorrow I expire. Beliefs and morals are instilled in us at a young age, we have no choice, how do we shed those ideas that were once taught to us that no longer or may never have applied.
Today I cried because I am so happy. I have decided to go back to school. I have quit smoking and Facebook for 2 weeks now. I am biking and eating well. I feel amazing.I am walking down the path, picking flowers on the way. I love my life!
Sittin' in my living room listening to lounge covers of popular songs, pina colada's and gettin' caught in the rain, I am now into yoga and I have more than half a brain. SCHOOL!
I have unrolled a map onto my kitchen table and put one finger where you are and another where I am.
The space between is only inches. That close, I could feel you breathing. I could reach out and run my fingers through every strand of your hair, touch your lips and barely need to move.
In the corner of the map there is a guide for judging scale: every inch a hundred miles full of roads and rivers and trees, the guide a sharp reminder that you are where you are and I am where I am, inches apart.
I am in love with amazing man and letting my insecurities get the best of me. I'm going to ruin everything. It's bubbling up inside of me just waiting to surface.