Looking for loving man who possesses the following qualities:

* Glibness and Superficial Charm

* Manipulative and Conning
(You never recognize the rights of others and see your self-serving behaviors as permissible. You appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering)

* Grandiose Sense of Self
(You Feel entitled to certain things as "your right.")

* Pathological Lying
(You have no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for you to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about your own powers and abilities. Extremely convincing and even able to pass lie detector tests)

* Lack of Remorse, Shame or Guilt
(A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at your core. You do not see others around you as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, you have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always justifies the means and you let nothing stand in your way)

* Shallow Emotions
(When you show what seems to be warmth, joy, love and compassion it is more feigned than experienced and serves an ulterior motive. Outraged by insignificant matters, yet remaining unmoved and cold by what would upset a normal person. Since you are not genuine, neither are your promises)

* Incapacity for Love

* Need for Stimulation
(Living on the edge. Verbal outbursts and physical punishments are normal. Promiscuity and gambling are common)

* Callousness/Lack of Empathy
(Unable to empathize with the pain of your victims, having only contempt for others' feelings of distress and readily taking advantage of them)

* Poor Behavioral Controls/Impulsive Nature
(Rage and abuse, alternating with small expressions of love and approval produce an addictive cycle for abuser and abused, as well as creating hopelessness in the victim. Believe you are all-powerful, all-knowing, entitled to every wish, no sense of personal boundaries, no concern for their impact on others)

* Promiscuous Sexual Behavior/Infidelity

* Criminal or Entrepreneurial Versatility
(Change your image as needed to avoid prosecution. Change life story readily)

I like long walks on the beach and possess the following qualities :

* A belief that if I love enough you will change

* A belief that if I love enough the relationship will succeed

* Difficulty establishing and maintaining boundaries

* Wanting to rescue others from their distress

* Being over nurturing particularly when not asked

* Live to please

* A lack of motivation from within and being motivated by what others want

* Depression

* Fear of relationships

* Difficulty falling asleep

* Fear of being alone

* Loss of interest in life

If you fit the above criteria and find my qualities appealing for a successful take over, I think we would be perfect together. A match made in the limbic system. Please contact my psychologist for further information.

Probably not, but I take it back anyway. You don't deserve it.

I have rarely got out of bed for 2 days. Today I forced myself to get up and I listened to my iPod in the bath. I feel a bit better. So the plan is to listen to as much music as possible for the next 3 days and see where that gets me. Also I have decided to stop drinking for awhile. Getting wasted in your bedroom alone is not healthy and only makes you feel worse the next day. Even if you are conducting ridiculous social experiments on ctrt. I'll post about this later WHEN I feel better.

I don't even know what to say. I'm just sad sad sad.

You posses a collection of broken hearts
that should have inspired caution

I saw something different in your eyes that night
maybe the true beast that lingers under your surface

An open book always gets closed with satisfaction or regret
To do so in such a fashion as you, with no remorse, no sadness
All the kind, sweet affection turning to empty promises
And me lead astray once again

You held me under your wing and knew exactly where I was
To kill such a hope won't soon be forgotten

I will see your eyes looking into mine and feel your hands
cradle my face for what will seem like an eternity

I compromised myself and my beliefs because you were mine
all I wanted was to be in the presence of the person I thought you were

I will learn from this and never make this mistake again
You will continue on your path of self loathing and self destruction
Never finding any bird as loving or loyal as I.

Goodnight sweet love that never was.

I miss Montreal so much today!

WHY does the shampoo always last longer than the conditioner? I thought I had it worked down to a science so I would be done both bottles at the same time but alas my brother came home from university and fucked up my rockaholic algorithms.

Get your own damn hair products, these are expensive and cost me nothing!

It really makes you wonder if anyone is really who they say they are. There will always be things about the people you are closest to that you don't know. Things they don't want to let anyone in on, can't bring themselves to open up and really become intimate with another human being. That's my problem, I'm an open book.

I have decided to post my 25 Top played songs from iTunes once a month. Here goes March.