.bipolar bear.
Other than my boyfriend being very sick and me constantly wanting to text him to see if he is alive, today is the best day ever!! I worked 9 and 1/2 hours to come home to YouTube leaks of She & Him Volume Two!!!!!!! I'm so excited and I love it as much as Volume One so far! Thieves is my favorite song as it stands. I'm definately buying it on vinyl. Bring on the newly brewed Shiraz and newly discovered music. Thinkin' of my babe and hopin' he's getting lots of fluids and having some of the chicken soup I made him. Heart.
February 23, 2010
.the use of effect VS affect.
"I gotta right to sing the blues
I gotta right to moan inside
I gotta right to sit and cry"
-Billie Holiday
Let me just say that obviously Miss Holiday has more of a right to sing the blues than I. Nonetheless I have had an appalling day.
I hope Ashley calls me for a walk, I need to clear the fuzzy ramblings looming in my C Cortex.
Aside from helping my parents bottle wine in my pajamas and filling my plate full of dinner after feeling hunger and other pains all day, I have been in bed since I awoke. I smell.
I am feeling quite low right now. I could use someone to talk to.
Although I love my parents and living with them, it certainly takes a toll on one when that person is used to having their own house/apartment to live in. I have privacy and my own things, everything I could really ask for. I can't explain the overwhelming need to have a space of my own. I guess you could say it's pride. I hate handouts and taking things from others. I knew what I was getting into when I made this HUGE life decision but it really does e/a ffect me negatively somedays.
I am afraid to check my savings account. I have set many (possibly unattainable) goals for myself and I fear I will let myself down on many levels. I usually only spend when I need to and occasionally for therapeutic purposes but the cash flow in is definitely competing with the cash flow out.
I have been telling myself I can do it. I can do whatever I want. I have myself convinced of this but my bank account will most certainly say otherwise.
I love having a part-time job that I enjoy but it does add a layer of stress to my situation. I am happy working the amount I am even though I know I should be working more in order to achieve my goals.
I get this feeling of emptiness every so often. Like I have nothing. Like I can't do this on my own. I know that I can because I have been doing it for so many years and I am still here. There are just those days when you feel completely defeated, drained and overly emotional about the smallest things.
Add a dash of raging PMS and you have someone who will jump to conclusions, feel sorry for herself, blow things out of proportion, over analyze her over analyzing, cry way too much for any normal human being to comprehend and potentially let herself sink in that muck hole of depression she remembers all too well.
If the feeling of being utterly alone in my struggles would subside I think I could deal.
I gotta right to moan inside
I gotta right to sit and cry"
-Billie Holiday
Let me just say that obviously Miss Holiday has more of a right to sing the blues than I. Nonetheless I have had an appalling day.
I hope Ashley calls me for a walk, I need to clear the fuzzy ramblings looming in my C Cortex.
Aside from helping my parents bottle wine in my pajamas and filling my plate full of dinner after feeling hunger and other pains all day, I have been in bed since I awoke. I smell.
I am feeling quite low right now. I could use someone to talk to.
Although I love my parents and living with them, it certainly takes a toll on one when that person is used to having their own house/apartment to live in. I have privacy and my own things, everything I could really ask for. I can't explain the overwhelming need to have a space of my own. I guess you could say it's pride. I hate handouts and taking things from others. I knew what I was getting into when I made this HUGE life decision but it really does e/a ffect me negatively somedays.
I am afraid to check my savings account. I have set many (possibly unattainable) goals for myself and I fear I will let myself down on many levels. I usually only spend when I need to and occasionally for therapeutic purposes but the cash flow in is definitely competing with the cash flow out.
I have been telling myself I can do it. I can do whatever I want. I have myself convinced of this but my bank account will most certainly say otherwise.
I love having a part-time job that I enjoy but it does add a layer of stress to my situation. I am happy working the amount I am even though I know I should be working more in order to achieve my goals.
I get this feeling of emptiness every so often. Like I have nothing. Like I can't do this on my own. I know that I can because I have been doing it for so many years and I am still here. There are just those days when you feel completely defeated, drained and overly emotional about the smallest things.
Add a dash of raging PMS and you have someone who will jump to conclusions, feel sorry for herself, blow things out of proportion, over analyze her over analyzing, cry way too much for any normal human being to comprehend and potentially let herself sink in that muck hole of depression she remembers all too well.
If the feeling of being utterly alone in my struggles would subside I think I could deal.
February 22, 2010
.my day has much more meaning.
Although a struggle to get used to, it feels good to actually work hard at a job. I love the way it makes me feel yet loathe the way my body isn't adjusting.
.halifax dog expo 2010 highlights.
WIENER DOG ! (I missed the photo of him in his jean overalls, pretty sad about it).
Solomon and another brindle boxer.
Another cutie Mastiff.
Solomon and 2 French Bulldog friends.
A little scruffer (Poodle/Jack Russel mix).
An Irish Setter (Looked like a dalmatian under the fur).
A Gigantor Mastiff.
A Whippet in his Nova Scotia Tartan.
An English Bulldog (yes his face is permanently like this).
A fuzzy Irish Wolfhound.
Someone is a tired little pup on the way back home.
February 18, 2010
.i love my life.
My handsome man just got me Adobe CS4 Creative Suite as a gift yesterday. I am certain I will now become a complete recluse. I am so excited to use all of the programs especially the new Photoshop and Dreamweaver and learn all of the programs I haven't had a chance to use before. You will either hear absolutely nothing from me for weeks or be bombarded with my creations, only time will tell. Heart.
February 16, 2010
.is this not the most hearty meal you have ever had?.
I had a wonderful Valentines Day. The best actually. I'm not into gifts so much as having someone really think about me. Now I know that it's kind of a commercial holiday but I love love and Valentines Day.
The best surprise ever was a home cooked dinner after a long day at work.
On the Menu :
Heart shaped hamburgers with heart shaped buns
Heart Shaped potatoes
Heart shaped homemade chicken nuggets WITH 6 DIFFERENT SAUCES!!!! (He really pays attention, I am the sauce queen)
And for desert Heart shaped rice krispies!
The thought and effort was amazing. <3
The best surprise ever was a home cooked dinner after a long day at work.
On the Menu :
Heart shaped hamburgers with heart shaped buns
Heart Shaped potatoes
Heart shaped homemade chicken nuggets WITH 6 DIFFERENT SAUCES!!!! (He really pays attention, I am the sauce queen)
And for desert Heart shaped rice krispies!
The thought and effort was amazing. <3
February 9, 2010
.crafty bitches : the sequel.
Designed by Erin Burke
Designed by Laura Pitts
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.Tub Panties 4 Life.
I only got to hear your voice for limited minutes but I'll have theses faces in my mind forev's.
Retreds.
Retreds.
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